Ok so for those of you who don't know, I had to take Caleb to the ER yesterday. He was up all night the night before he was throwing up and coughing really bad. The next morning we were taking a nap when we woke up Caleb was breathing really wierd. So I went to show my sister and she was like "oh no, you have to call the Doctor" and when I did they called me back and told me to go to the ER. So i freaked out tried to get a hold of James but I couldn't so I left when we got there they sent us straight back ahead of 15 people I was so scared. He had to get oxygen and have 2 breathing treatments and steroids to help his lungs get stronger. Then he had an x-ray and then we had to wait for them to find a nebuliezer so we can do at home breathing treatments. Now he has to have one every 4 hours. There is so much bs going on in my life right now I just want to go to sleep and never have to worry about anything. But I know that, that will never happen so I guess I'll just have to suck it up change my life filter out all the things that are happening in my life and make the best of it. I'm not the best person on earth, the greatest wife or mother but I wish I was. And I'm going to take every step that I can into being the best freind, sister, wife, mother, daughter that I can be and filter out those who can not give me the same in return. Even though I'm not perfect no one is so I think that every one needs to take a step back and look into their life before trying to look into mine. Don't worry about my shit because you talking about it will only make not only me hate you but I'll talk about you too, Since your not perfect either. But I don't do that because I really care about the people that I love and are there for me because I don't do it to you. So for anyone out there who knows what I'm talking about go ahead and think about what you're saying before you say it and also that whatever it is will get back to me and just remember, If you think I'm screwed up look at yourself, worry about yourself. If you have to be this kind of a person then I will not ever talk to you because you are the type of poeple who make my life miserable.

Any one who knows what I'm talking about go to the movies and see tupac ressurection, He knows what I'm talking about.